Rediscover Catholicism

_Why do I grumble and complain when I am not feeling well and suffering.  Why do I seek human consolation and understanding from those that do not understand. Why do I forget to just simply use the act of my own will and accept it and believe that this is God will for me to undergo. Why do I not trust God. If can simply say "yes" and will to accept it then I can unite my suffering with Christ's suffering on the cross. Only He can understand and His Grace console me. Lord, help me not only accept your will and just endure, but help me want the same thing. Lord I believe, help my unbelief. Help me to believe that you call me "Beloved".